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I haven't figured it out yet.

Sometimes everything is too loud, and i prefer the calm. If not forever, at least for a while.

I understand that people hurt; if not now then eventually.

I don't understand the too happy me; i prefer the rare calm me.

I wonder if you would ever find a person to have your back. at least one person who doesn't talk behind your back

If all I wanted was a person who would have my back no matter what, I don't think it would come true. I don't think it is possible to trust people to not hurt you and if you do trust them probably that would hit you the hardest.